Good bye PYT! I'll miss you...

Some of you might be aware of my fascination for one particular PYT. To correct myself and you, it's not a passing fancy I have (I have and not 'had' 'coz I still have it. Can't help it) for her. I thought so in the beginning only to realise that it isn't so. I'm serious about this girl... dead serious. But my predicament is that she's not. She never took me seriously though I proposed to her twice! Now, am I being shameless? Does shame has a place in the game of love? Whatever...

I tried thinking from her shoe. I assumed that she was too young to respond to a proposal from me. I assumed she needs to be given more time. I assumed that she was helpless in a way I never knew. I assumed that she thinks I'm trying to play around with her... "You'd have known me better my dear pretty one, only if you had bothered to take a good look at me". But her shoe is too small for my feet, I guess! I found it impossible to convince my mind with all this. So, what did I do? I thought of the next best thing to be done. Forward a formal proposal through her parents! Do I sound ridiculous? Well, I might be. But remember, there are no rules in love and war.

But to do this, I needed the help of an elder person from my side. And with the purpose in mind, I went and met an uncle of mine with whom I can discuss such matters in open. And what turned out of that discussion was... Ah! After listening to all that I had to say - that I proposed to her twice, that I've been carrying this burden in my heart for the past three months and all that shit, he asked me to "forget her"! Yes. That's exactly what he said!!

Forget her? Oh! My heart aches at the thought... Not that I'm so madly in love with her. Not that I'd not be able to do it. But it's not that easy a thing to do. It's her, the reason for me to get out of the trauma of my past broken relationship. It's her, who made me realise that the lover-boy in me is still alive. It's her, who made me realise that there are better women left in this world. It's her, who was the reason for me to wear my pink glasses again. It's her... It's her... It's her... Oh! My PYT!!

But after talking to him, I could see the reasons and mind you, the reasons are good enough ones. He said he'd have readily met her parents with my proposal only if she had shown some interest in me. Also, he did point out the difference in our domestic backgrounds. I saw, for the first time that there are a few stumbling blocks even if our relationship had materialised. Not that they are major ones. But they sure are little ones which'd make all the difference. And to get over that, we need to work things out together. And for that to happen, she needs to be serious about getting involved with me. But I see that none of this is going to happen. I saw the reality of the situation and that my dreams would stay as just sweet dreams... Bo hooo... I wish I could break down and cry. Now, please don't tell me, "Come on, be a man!". It takes a Man to cry and you know that.

And please don't mistake all this to be of her fault. No. She did absolutely nothing to encourage me. But her mere presence was... Ah! Why cry over spilled milk, right? In fact she even showed her annoyance at my advances. Her slate is clean and I've nothing against her. The "romantic little booher" (that's what SupahMommy calls me) that I'm... That's the whole trouble...

And with a bleeding heart I tell this to myself - "Good bye PYT, my dear pretty little girl... Only if you had..."

"Only if you had..." What wishful thinking??? Grrr... Bo Hoooo...

Comments

Steven Anthony said…
Oh my friend, it is the curse of us romantics...we always fall for the ones who dont fall for us. But I have learned through my life if you continue to follow your heart, not letting the disapointments make you hard, things will get better. And one day you will look into the eyes of a pyt and she will look back and it will be wonderful.

Keep the faith my friend:)
Peace
4evernite said…
What can we do when our heart goes on a path without us, except to follow after it? And this you did. I'm sorry it didn't turn out well for you. I admire you for seeing her side as well as your own. That takes guts. And yes, it takes a real man to cry. I have no doubt there is a PYT out there for you. One who will love and cherish you for the sweet guy that you are. Just keep looking. She's out there.
Kaiserin Sisi said…
You are still young my friend! We have a saying back home, "there's not one flower but many." Parents used this "saying" to tell their sons when they are broken-hearted. Basically it means, there is not just one girl, but many! So, no worries.
AmyK said…
I can see that your heart is in pain, but she has told you "no" twice now. There is another saying, "Sometimes you have to love someone enough to let them go." That is where you are now. It is not what your heart wants to hear but if you don't, you are into an area that will cause her to resent you. You don't want that.

If you are meant to be together, she will come to you, if not, you will be a better man for the real love of your life.
Ekanthapadhikan said…
That's the saddest part of the story AmyK. Did she say "No"? Yes she did. But I still doubt how much she meant by that "No". Ah! Maybe that I'm still being wishful. But she's a very decent and sensible girl. She still talks to me like a friend! So, even if it's not going to last, it'd never end on a bad note.

And thanks for your kind words.
Joanna Jenkins said…
A "no" twice is your message to move on. I'm sorry your heart is so sad, but this doesn't sound like it was meant to be.

Wait until your heart finds the woman who embraces your love. It will be well worth the wait.

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