I miss her whose name starts with an A and ends with an A!

I'm the old self again - lovelorn, lost and lonely.

I've had two serious break-ups in the past decade and at-least half a dozen love interests in between which were never requited but I'm strangely reminded of one of them tonight.

Her name starts with A and ends with A and has an I and an N in between the five-letter word that her name is. She is that person that one of my friends, maybe not very sincerely but just out of her very clueless thoughts of life, set me up with.

Honestly, I was a very desperate guy-in-need-of-a-girl type then and I fell for it.

My friend asked me to meet them both at the film-festival that was happening then (I guess, it was 2011 IFFK) and I readily agreed.

I did meet this girl whose name starts with A and ends with A and I did find her to be attractive too. But I was never a guy of charm and I guess, I flopped in and out in front of her.

I was dejected but I left it at that to live my own life of drinks and cigarettes and lonely nights.

Of course, I did nag my friend, not very often though, about my loneliness, and maybe she thought of setting me up with someone which didn't go too well.

Whatever said and done, I really did like the girl she set me up with but I just couldn't extract the same feeling from her.

What's worse was that I, in my desperateness talked and reacted too much to the point that she thought me very silly. Oh my stupid self!

But after all these times, I must confess I do miss talking to that girl whose name starts with A and ends with A and has an I and an N in between the five-letter word that her name is!

In a very odd way and a very, very lonely night, I must confess, I do miss her tonight!

Comments

Brian Miller said…
there are those that capture our hearts....that never let go...
Ekanthapadhikan said…
It's nothing like that. That's why I said "In a very odd way and a very, very lonely night, I must confess, I do miss her tonight!"

I never thought about her for a long time now and she suddenly appeared from nowhere!
Ammose said…
There are these people who were deep buried in our memories. They suddenly pop up demanding attention one find day, and remind us all that idiotic things we would have done then. Its momentary, but is a strange feeling :)
Helena said…
It's quite surprising what comes to the forethought of our minds. I sometimes torment myself trying to work out why.